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Monday, January 13, 2014

RIP Luke! I Love You Bro!


Normally I am a calm, cool and collected person but sorry guys that won't happen in this post. Last week I was talking about tomorrow not being promised. Well never in a million years did I guess I would lose a friend so quickly. I am an emotional wreck right now. That never happens to me. I normally keep it in. Right now I am sitting hoping that this is all a cruel joke. Luke (GT)cant be gone!

When I go to sleep I always have my phone on loud so I will not miss any phone call or text. Well Saturday night I decided I was going to put it on silent because I had not been sleeping good! I woke up Sunday and had 13 missed calls, 12 voice-mails, 22 text messages and countless Facebook Messages. When I saw this I thought to myself that this better be damn important. Then I heard the dreaded words on the voice-mail. “Kory call me GT passed away”. I sat there for 5 minutes replaying it. There is no way this happened. I was just talking to him on Wednesday before he went on leave. As a matter of fact he just posted a picture on Facebook. I went to go look at his page and it was filled with RIP Luke from his family. That’s when it hit me, I lost a member of my Navy family. I froze. This can't be happening. Not Luke he is what a friend should be!

From the moment we saw GT's orders to the ship we knew he was going to be something else. No one knew how to pronounce his last name! Then when he showed up to the ship on that cold December day! I was standing topside rover and I look down and I see someone where a full suit. I could only think who the hell is that??? When I got off watch I went to go find out. When I stepped on the Quarterdeck (actually I didnt even make it out the door) he came up to me and said “Hi my name is Luke!” I welcomed him on board and asked him why he was wearing a suit and he said he just like to Suit Up! I knew from that point forward it was going to be nothing normal about him. The next morning he showed up to Quarters with the shiniest boots and was standing at parade rest. It took him a couple weeks to get him to stop doing that. He had the most military bearing on the ship. Over the next couple weeks he slowly came out of his shell and showed us who he was. The most caring and compassionate person.

Eventually I got to transfer up to his Division and well that’s when he really became a part of my family!We had to share a desk for the first couple weeks because there weren’t enough. He made sure that I was trained and would not leave until I knew what I was doing. If I had any issues he was there to help. If he couldn’t do it, he found someone who could! Luke would wake up at any time of the night (although he didnt sleep much) if you need something! He really was a great friend!

Another side of Luke was he liked to push every boundary know to man. During Holiday Standdown of 2012 he decided to read the regulations on hair styles in the Navy. He showed up the next day with highlights in his hair. I couldn’t stop laughing because I knew Chief Winslow was not going to be happy with this choice. When Chief walked into the shop and saw GT he just put his hand over his mouth and just shook his head. GT pulled out the regs and showed Chief. He still had to go change his hair!

Being out in public with him was always a trip. I don’t think he knew how to dress down! He was always wearing a fancy shirt and suspenders or bow tie. Going to our local hang out “The Dutch” was always fun. He liked to try spicy food so he accepted the challenge of eating the spiciest pasta with a lot of peppers. He cried but he did it! Simple moments like these make him awesome!

My last moment on the ship with him was standing a Quarterdeck watch with him. Without fail he made me laugh the whole time. He didnt care what he said over the loudspeaker. He didnt rehearse anything! Well he accidentally said the word Shit! OPS came running out the door so fast to chew him out! Luke played it off like OPS was hearing things and that nothing was said. He was so confused and walked away not yelling at him! It was priceless!

Just typing up these few moments has made me smile and cry! Luke was a genuine person and he will be deeply missed by all of the Mount Whitney crew. All I want to know is why did he have to be taken so young. He had so much more to give to the world. I know god has a plan for him but I just don't understand it! I sat in bed last night crying! Thankfully I had the rest of my Navy family messaging me and calling me so we can get through this together. We are all hurt! Its also good to see all the photos and memories posted all over social media. He touched so many people. My prayers do go out for his family. I can only imagine what they are going through after losing a son so young!

Thank you everyone for listening to me as a babble on during my emotional wreck! When you go to sleep say a prayer for everyone you love. That they stay safe! Remember tomorrow is not promised so take nothing for granted!

RIP Luke!  I love you and will miss you!

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Becoming my Parents, Parent!

Becoming my Parents, Parent!

When I was a kid I would always run to my mom or dad anytime anything was wrong. Especially anytime I was sick. I mean c'mon everyone wants Mommy when they don't feel good. Even when I was in the Navy I wanted her to make me soup. Dad's are there to teach the son all the “tricks of the trade”. Give them the life lesson on girls and that beauty of a 1969 Mustang.

Looking back my childhood was great. No matter how many times I told my parents that they are ruining my life. I don’t think that extra 15 minutes of TV was that crucial. Even if Tim “The Tool Man” Taylor was going to blow something up.( I feel like that should be another post. Shows of the past!)

Now that I am 25 the tables are slowly turning. No, I do not have any kids in my life. I'm starting to have to take care of a parent. I re-read that last sentence a million times before I actually typed it. That’s a scary thought. Without going into detail, its rough! Having to make sure that all the bills are paid, Dr.'s appointments are made and overall life is good. I'm not going to lie, its not rough! IT PLAIN OUT SUCKS! I am beginning my life. You mean to tell me that I have to stop everything that I am doing to take care of someone?

Whoa, did you just feel that? I think Hell just froze over! I can still picture the conversation that I had with my mom when I was younger. I told her that no matter how many children I had they would not stop me from doing what I wanted to do. I got the famous “You just wait!” speech. She could not have been more right. I now think about what I am doing and how it will fit into my parents life. Parent first, me last!

Let me clarify one thing. I am not angry or upset that I am having to do this! I love my parents more then anything. Its just a little bit of a struggle on both ends. What parent wants their kid helping taking care of them? Especially from a while away. No one wants that.

The hardest part for me is to see the health going down hill. They were always putting a band-aid on me and now I am figuratively doing it for them. There are some nights that I am sitting in bed and the tears begin to flow. Where is that magic pill to make everything better? Perfect health, whatever it takes! Then the reality sinks in...there is no such thing. Just smile and keep on moving!

This post has had my mind and emotions going all over the place today but it has reminded me of a important life lesson. Next time that you are around someone important in your life, smile and give them a hug! You never know what is going to happen before you see them next. Tomorrow is not promised!

Monday, January 6, 2014

Hello, Goodbye!

Hello, Goodbye!

2013, What a year it was! Who knew that I would hit so many milestones and events in my life over a period of 365 days? I have been up, down and everywhere in between. I really wanted this year to end but now that I look back it sure has taught me A LOT!

I started the year off finally enjoying and loving the Navy. Yes even the Mount Whitney (as hard as that is to believe!) I really contemplated making it a career. I had met people that to this day I still consider family. Sadly due to some stupid actions by myself and others I had it all a taken away from me. The middle of February I was flying back to the states not really sure what was going to happen next. They say the the military becomes you. Well IT DOES! The thing I tried so hard to fight I actually loved. What was I going to do? I spent the next month in Virginia preparing for the “next step”. Wherever it would take me.

At the beginning of March I would venture back home and ponder what I wanted to do. Most people who read this will not understand what it was like to be on the Mount Whitney. But, it was just so nice to wake up in the morning and not having to worry about anything. I just wanted to be a civilian for a few weeks before doing anything. The powers that be however thought that I should get a job. Looking back at it now that probably would have been smart. I wasn't having anything to do with that though! I wanted time off!

Now the next few months I had to take care of some personal and private issues. Now there is nothing like taking you completely out of your comfort zone to make you realize whats important in life. On this incredible journey I met some great people that helped me realize what I was doing was the right thing no matter what others thought.

It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out how much I love Texas. Simply I had to get back to it! In August I set by boots down in Nacogdoches. Whoa, back to the scene of the crime according to some. Yet from the first moment back I new I was where I needed to be. East Texas a beautiful and relaxing place. Now all I needed to do was get back in the groove of this school thing again!The semester was a little rough but I made it through! Even past the days that I was positive I was doing what I didn’t want to!

This past year has been full of a lot of “shit” for me. Yet right now I cant get my head off of cloud nine right now! Some of my problems may be so small compared to others but I was taught some of the same lessons. I can confidently say that you have heard the saying “When life gives you lemons, make Lemonade!” For crying out loud DO IT! You may be at rock bottom, where is seems like nothing is going to get better, just look at the positive! You’re still breathing right? You may not be something to everyone but to someone you’re everything!

I saw something on Facebook the other day that I really liked. I feel like its the perfect way to to end this New Years post!

“May the best of 2013 be the worst of 2014!”

Happy New Year Everyone!

Kory!